YMESSED UP LIFE
Thursday, March 26, 2009 - 11:19 AM
went back to hospital on sun.
doct said that my condition deteroriated.
was given more medicine.
medical leave was extended for two days.
over the last two days,
took plenty of rest,
did a lot of reflections,
myself and my future.
another sad thing.
i'm having serious insomia problem.
i can't sleep even though very tired.
head hurts badly during the day.
i really hope i can recover soon.
physically, mentally & emotionally weak.
afterwhich i just want to lead a simple & healthy life.
and work hard for my future.
at the same time,
i realized that during your low times,
those whom you expected concern from,
was unlikely to be there for you.
it was my family,
my true friends,
my colleagues,
that showered me
with all the care and concern.
some are only there,
to have fun with you.
some are there for you,
during your ups and downs.
so if you're only there,
to have fun with me,
then all i can say,
i do not need you.
if i'm willing to put in my best,
to be there for you always,
i strongly believe you can too,
and i expect it from you.
but if you can't,
firstly i believe we're not compatible,
secondly i do not need such a friend,
lastly i'm not gonna be there for u anymore.
i'm no longer the dixon i used to be.
i'm no longer the dixon that only wanna have fun.
i'm no longer the dixon that used to be an extrovert.
i'm no longer the dixon who is so naive.
[;n0stalgIa-n0xiD]