YMESSED UP LIFE
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 - 5:23 PM
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12am.
As I listen to the songs we once listened together,
I couldn’t control but breakdown severely again.
Verge of suffocating myself,
As tears just flowed.
Covered my mouth tightly,
And cried silently.
As I grabbed the blanket tightly,
My stomach began to hurt terribly.
I’ve never encountered such pain before.
The pain was far beyond description.
1am.
Dragged myself to the kitchen,
And took some medication to ease the pain.
As I looked at the pills,
I was so tempted to gobble all down.
Within a split second,
I fell down on my knee,
Banged my head against the wall,
As I felt sharp pain in my stomach.
2am.
During that moment of pain & despondent,
I was hoping you could be there for me,
Taking care of me like how you did before,
And be my source of strength and hope.
As I was shivering under my blanket,
I was hoping you could be there for me,
Just like the way you’ve hug me to sleep,
Giving me all the love and warmth I need.
But you weren’t there.
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