Tuesday, July 17, 2007 - 12:57 PM

The 69th day without you.






i tried my best to be true to everyone,
and not hide anything from you guys.
But people are always hiding stuff behind my back.
I really don know why.



Do you think i would be less hurt knowing it later?
Do you think hiding stuff from me, can hurt me lesser?
Do you think i would be happier, without knowing the truth?
Do you think i won't find out?



Am i such a insensitive person?
Am i such a person who deserve such treatment?



I care for others more than myself.
But people are taking it for granted.




Honestly, i am a very sensitive person.
I know what is going on, but i choose to remain silent.
If you think you are the people i mentioned above,
no point coming to ask if its you,
cause i won't say even if its you,
No other comments, but disappointment.




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As for my life in school, i am really mentally exhausted.
I really wonder, is it so difficult for students to listen in class and pay attention. And as the class makes noise, i have to raise my voice. And when students fail to follow instructions, i would have to give punishment.


Perhaps the students might think that i am a heartless freak, but deep in my heart, do you know it hurts? I really do not wanna raise my voice and give punishments. Everytime after i give punishment, i wonder if the student can cope with it and hopefully he/she will learn his/her lessons. I give the students as little homework as possible cause i understand they have loads of other homework to do. But even with the minimal homework i am giving, many of the students still refused to put in the effort to finish the homework on time.


If you are willing to pay attention and learn in class, i will put in my best in explaining and teaching you guys. No matter how late i have to stay back, i won't give up on you guys as long as you are willing to put in the effort in cooperating and listening in class.


Have lots to say but too tired to continue.

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