Tuesday, July 25, 2006 - 10:12 PM

Unbreakable



Tears are my only companion during this few days. My life seems so screwed. The motivation, enthusiasm, zest, optimism and happiness seem to fade away from me day after day. My heart had been tearing apart, and it hurts everyday. The knife had pierced through my heart, bleeding in pain. Everyday I seem to be walking behind a shadow of sadness.

Someone told me I was weak in expressing myself. Maybe that’s the factor which adds on to my sorrow. Honestly, I put my friends ahead of myself when doing things, I hope to get the best for us, but maybe I had expressed it wrongly, which gave many people the wrong perception of me. I know it had resulted in many unhappiness and sorrow among us, but the only thing I could say is that my heart is shattered. I am really trying my very best to compromise and hope everyone is happy. Emotionally unstable now, I really had enough of pain. Can we just put down all the hatred and sorrow, and move towards a happier and brighter future? I am really desperately in need of that.

Why must be people be gossiping around and backstabbing each other. Why can we just open up and share your true feelings? I am a very open, honest and straight forward person, I do not hide my true feelings, but there seems to be so many people around me who keep their true feelings from me. I am really disappointed.

The pain and sorrow recently had hurt me physically and mentally. In order to cover the pain I faced, I push myself real hard. And because of this, my health is badly affected. Just like today, I vomited 7 times in total. My food appetite is also affected, I lost interest in food. On the cover, I might have an urge to eat, but in my heart, its nothing but pain. When I am sad, the only thing I could do is to stuff myself with food, until I am real full to puke everything out. I know many of you will think I am silly, but that’s the only thing vent my sorrow on.

Letting things off which you had hold on so tightly is not a simple and easy task. I tried to let things go but the result I see is a broken heart and tears. One thing you guys will surely think, I am so useless, as guys are not supposed to drop a tears. But I would like to tell you, no matter how strong a person is, when all the downs in life comes chasing after you, the only thing you could do to relieve the stress and sorrow is cry your hearts out. It really helps a lot.

Tears helped, but I really need someone whom I can lean on, and share my joy n sorrow with. So near yet so far. Why is this world so unfair? I am really getting so sick and tired of life. I had enough; the only thing I want is just to be with you.

Hope this song lyrics can expressed my true feelings.
By Westlife – Unbreakable

Took my hand
Touched my heart
Held me close
You were always there
By my side
Night and day
Through it all
Maybe come what may

Swept away on a wave of emotion
Overcaught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine
This love is UNBREAKABLE
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is UNBREAKABLE
Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here
Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong
I've been touched by the hands of an angel
I've been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine

This love is UNBREAKABLE
It's unmistakeable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why

This love is UNBREAKABLE
Through fire and flame
When all this over
Our love still remains
This love is UNBREAKABLE
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
Cause each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why

This love is UNBREAKABLE

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