Tuesday, June 13, 2006 - 12:16 PM

Woke up 10.30am today. Had "ba chang" for breakfast and read newspaper. Yester was a day with lots of mixed feelings. During the society meeting, Tommy, Christina, Melissa, Peifen and I had lots of fun recapping on our childhood days where we went crazy over those "Winnie the Pooh" softtoy, Teletubbies, Mac's Hello Kitty toy and etc. We went laughing out loud and shared our memorable childhood experience, which we had a great time doing. Among the laughters moments, we also managed to come out with the skeleton of the whole BA Camp event which i am quite satisfied and happy with. We will put in our very best and make it the event which many people are looking forward to.

Right after meeting, went to my grandparents house to return the car before i rush down to orchard to meet brandon for dinner. I was half an hour late cause there was a slight jam. Meantime, brandon went around to shop, and got in mind so many stuff to buy. haha. We had our dinner until around 8.30pm before going for a short shopping spree. Tried on to a couple of CK clothes but does not really fits well, so did not buy. But saw a G-Star jeans which i love it to bits, but the price prevented me from buying. The price is $430. It looks fabulous. Never mind, shall wait till it got sales then go buy. haha. Must save money, spent too much liao. haha

Got the shopping mood, but most of the shops closed at around 9 to 9.30pm. So went home after that. On my way home, chatted with my friend on the phone regarding some stuff which turn us off. I were quite pissed, but thankfully, my friend managed to cool me down. Took a bath and started on my Investment and PLB project. Multi-tasking with the "surprise" present and projects, until so tired cannot take it. Went to bed at 1.30am.

This morning when i woke up, my heart and mind seems to be so heavy. I was thinking, sometimes i put in so much effort in bonding with my friends but was not appreciated. I can sleep lesser or even skip meals, or sacrifice my personal time just for my friends, but was not appreciated also. Maybe i hold on things too tightly, and put too much hopes on some stuff which i think is a good thing, but others might think its a pest. I just love my friends so much that i will not even let small stuff hinder our friendship, but feel helpless sometimes. No one understand how i feel, it seems that everything i do also seems to be incorrect. I am really getting confused of what i should do. No matter what happen or how tired i am, i will always be there for my friends, but never mind, maybe time is the best solution to all the problems.

Let me know if you have any things unhappy about me, i am willing to change for the better, cause i believe that if a person have the willpower to change for the better, the person sure can change and it just takes some time and also people around you to give you the care and support. So feel free to tell me if you guys got anything, i just don't like people to talk behind my back or invade into my privacy. Its just so annoying. Different people have different style have different character, but its fate that let me know you as a friend. A friendship needs both parties to put in effort, and i really treasure all my friends who put in effort for our friendship. I am willing to adapt with you guys and watch the happy memories we have before.

I am a very sensitive person, as my friends would know. The care and concern for my friends will never fade no matter what happen, its whether my friends are willing to accept it. I also need someone to provide me with the care and concern, which is why i say out my true feelings. There are certain stuff which i can say, but there is certain stuff, it up to you guys to discover, or else what friends are for?

TO MY BEST FRIENDS: I really love you guys so much that no words can express it all out. Just Hugs and Love for you guys. Thanks for the care and concern and support. I will also always be there for you guys. =) Muackz!

Just came back from Shaoping's birthday celebration at Holland Village with Mel, Jere, Jocelyn, Jason,Wee leong, Xiao Xuan and shaoping. As shaoping and i were walking to meet them, we saw two teenage actors and they were like looking at the beautiful shaoping la. haha. Went to roof top terrace for a short appetizer, with pizza and seafood platter. Celebrated Shaoping's birthday with a candle-lit brownie and 8 of us share the sweet little brownie. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAOPING!

Stomach still growling, we went to the Holland V food centre and had our proper dinner. The guys order our own main course and shared a plate of fried oyster while the gals only shared a plate of fried kuay tiao and hor fun, which is only half of our portion la. Really small eater. Right after dinner, we went to Eski Bar, for a couple of drinks. It was actually not as cold as a expected in the main hall. Went into the ice room, and after staying in a while, it was so cold until my hands were starting to get numb. Took a few photos shots, before returning to our seats. Gals played guessing game, while guys watch soccer. Chatting until around 10pm. Sent jere home then came home.

Now have to continue with my project already. Holiday break also got so much stuff to do. Ciao. Have fun to those going to sentosa tomorrow =)

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